Chapter 12: The Name I Was Born With

by LASZLO September 30, 2025

By now, I had lost everything I once used to define myself.

My sound.
My memories.
My body.
My past.

Even the names I had worn along the way had fallen away.

LVL.
Bazix.
Cicatrixx.
Persona.

Each of them had served a purpose.
Each of them had carried a piece of me through a chapter of the journey.

But none of them were me.

And in losing all of it, I gained the only thing that truly mattered:

Clarity.

Not just about who I was —
but about who I wasn’t.

For years I had believed the task was to find myself.

But that wasn’t true.

I had been building myself.

Brick by brick.
Ritual by ritual.
Word by word.

Every identity.
Every philosophy.
Every transformation.

And when I finally saw the whole structure from the outside, I understood something simple:

If I could build all these identities…
then none of them were the core.

They were masks.
Tools.
Interfaces between the soul and the world.

Useful.

Powerful.

But still… masks.

And I had worn enough of them.

The journey through jungles, ceremonies, heartbreak, exile, music, silence, loss, and rebirth had not led me to a new name.

It had led me back to the first one.

The only one that had ever truly been mine.

Not a brand.
Not a persona.
Not a construct.

Just the name given to me before the world began shaping me.

Laszlo Van Leeuwen.

No mythology required.
No mask necessary.

Just a man who lost himself completely…
and then rebuilt himself consciously.

Now the work begins again.

Not as a character.
Not as a guru.
Not as someone trying to “make it.”

But simply as myself.

The music will come.
The videos.
The stories.
The worlds we will build together.

But none of it is about a persona anymore.

It is about transmission.

From experience.
From truth.
From the long road it took to return to something simple.

This is not the birth of a new identity.

It is the removal of all the ones that were never truly mine.

And what remains is the only thing that was always there.

‘Laszlo Van Leeuwen’;

‘Laszlo’ being Hungarian for ‘Glorious Ruler’,

‘Van Leeuwen’ Dutch for ‘Of The Lions’.

No mask. No Game. No Play.

The Glorious Ruler of The Lions is here.

Now, Let’s begin.